3 months, 3 weeks, 3 questions

It's my third month anniversary today..it's strange how time flies when one is happy. Let me first warn you that I am quite emotional today, there's a lot on my mind. I've been thinking about the last 3 months of my life and how quickly they flew and how I feel so lucky that I have Ali by my side. I've been thinking about the last 3 weeks of my life and how sick I was (and still am) and how it feels like I've been sick for ages and how this sickness brought me and Ali closer to each other. I've been also thinking about my uncle, who passed away 2 days ago, and my memories of him when me and my bro were kids and how life can be so good to some people and not so good to others. I've been thinking about the latest events and how it is so unfair to see Lebanese women and children running for their lives and at the same time it seems unfair to see thousands of people fearing getting on a plane again. I've been thinking about all this, and in the end I was asking myself: Can happiness be a life-long feeling or is this too much to ask for? Can we always be optimistic about the future or we are bound to feel sometimes that it's a mad mad world we're living in? And, do we shape our own lives or does life shape us?

Happy anniversary my hubby..

Mai